I'm sensitive.
I'm weak.
I'm easily get influenced.
I'm shy.
I'm lazy.
I'm stupid.
I'm clumsy.
But, they seem not to know.......
Sometimes, I can't rong ru their world.
I can't.
Just let it be......
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30.4.13
These days.
I'm used to be who doesn't like me.
I don't understand. I don't know.
Mama said : 'Why are you so lazy nowadays, always like to skip school. You are not like this last time!'
I feel ashamed. I feel guilty. wo dui bu qi my parents.
Yes, I agreed that I'm the way too too too too too lazy, lazier than the past years.
This year, the important year and yet I'm getting lazier lazier and lazier.
I'm just not who I should be.
I hate myself.
Can believe anot? I haven't started revise and even open the books. I'm not lying!!!
It's truth!!!
Sometimes, I'm thinking what if I choose art stream?? Will it still the same?? Will I get to relax?? Not like now!! @#$%@#$%@#$%@#$%@#$%
I should listen to my mama and jiejie's advises!!!! I should!!!
These days, my mind keeps replay what if ...... what if.... what if.......
Wo shou gou le!!!!!
I wanna get out from this living hell!!!!!!!!!!
I wanna.........
I wanna.........
I want the freeeeeeeee ..........
That's all I want.......
24.4.13
I seriously don't really know what's wrong!!! I just feel abandoned and neglected. I hate this feeling. I hate being ignored. I hate deng deng deng... Can't help!!! I want to go out from this hell!!! All pair pair but me always left behind. Should I quit??!!!!!!!!! I don't know but I just wanna express my feeling!!!!!!!!!!! Kai-geh!!!!!!!
19.4.13
6.3.13
About me!!
RUNNING MAN is my fav variety show. YAY! Fortunately, I have rm buddies so we can talk bout running man all the time.
FRIENDS are important. I don't know why I am so bad in socializing. Since they are my bff so far, but still I feel we got some gap between us. I don't know why. I always face this problem. I really jealous of some friends can talk openly and have no secrets. I try to share my feelings to them. Yeah, I feel more comfortable. But, sometimes I just feel I was a stranger for them... Maybe I do not talk much. I just feel they do not know my personality well because I don't know...too... I just feel like a stranger sometimes... I hope I can open my mind wider....it would better.
FAMILY are important too. I love my family. I love them forever. Hopefully,I can make more good memories with them!!
STUDIES are important for future. Actually, I don't know what I want to study after SPM. Aimless...
Okay.bye.
FRIENDS are important. I don't know why I am so bad in socializing. Since they are my bff so far, but still I feel we got some gap between us. I don't know why. I always face this problem. I really jealous of some friends can talk openly and have no secrets. I try to share my feelings to them. Yeah, I feel more comfortable. But, sometimes I just feel I was a stranger for them... Maybe I do not talk much. I just feel they do not know my personality well because I don't know...too... I just feel like a stranger sometimes... I hope I can open my mind wider....it would better.
FAMILY are important too. I love my family. I love them forever. Hopefully,I can make more good memories with them!!
STUDIES are important for future. Actually, I don't know what I want to study after SPM. Aimless...
Okay.bye.
Yay! I am here after so long...about 6 months? Let's talk about my currently life. It's good so far. But,quite stress since I am sitting for SPM this year. First test was over. Quite bad as I did not do well in this test. I should aim for mid-term. Procrastination kills. I know I should start revise back my F4 syllabus but I'm too lazy. Tons of presentations are waiting for me. I hate presentations the most!! Haihhhh... Okay,CNY ended.
Well,I had an reunion dinner with family as usual on nian 28. On chor 1,stayed in Ipoh to celebrate,kampung areas are more feel than city. On chor 2,I went to mother's side to celebrate with relatives. We went to so many places to bai nian. So happy having this bunch of cousins. On chor 3-5,we went to Sg.Lembing. At first,I was quite unsatisfied with this place. But now,I wanted to go there so badly. It was a kampung place,we live in a du jia cun which is so huge and so ngam us. Lol. Since it rained for many days,so not so convenient. But, it was fun! Then chor 6,went to yi ma's house for gathering. On chor 7,went to ou with friends. Have fun,too. Then back to school life. TT
School was okay for me, so so only. I am not good in socialize with people. So,it was lil boring. I miss my long lost friends but don't know why we can't being together as friends. I was so sad and sad and regretted. I tried to step the first step. But, I am so shy. Then,it is the results. Haihhhh...okay bye.
Well,I had an reunion dinner with family as usual on nian 28. On chor 1,stayed in Ipoh to celebrate,kampung areas are more feel than city. On chor 2,I went to mother's side to celebrate with relatives. We went to so many places to bai nian. So happy having this bunch of cousins. On chor 3-5,we went to Sg.Lembing. At first,I was quite unsatisfied with this place. But now,I wanted to go there so badly. It was a kampung place,we live in a du jia cun which is so huge and so ngam us. Lol. Since it rained for many days,so not so convenient. But, it was fun! Then chor 6,went to yi ma's house for gathering. On chor 7,went to ou with friends. Have fun,too. Then back to school life. TT
School was okay for me, so so only. I am not good in socialize with people. So,it was lil boring. I miss my long lost friends but don't know why we can't being together as friends. I was so sad and sad and regretted. I tried to step the first step. But, I am so shy. Then,it is the results. Haihhhh...okay bye.
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